“Fifty
Years of Blessing”
July
21, 2004
I’ve
been asked, “are you ever going to write for the website again?”. I answered
simply, “yes”.
Being
someone who doesn’t write just to write, it is difficult unless inspired
by the Holy Spirit. This is not to say that plenty of action with His moving
and God’s direction and Jesus’ faithfulness has not been going on since
I last wrote. A novel could be written on the work of God I’ve witnessed
and experienced personally. The words were just not there to put pen to
paper or should I say fingers to keyboard?
God
woke me at 5:00 a.m.this morning or was it my husband rising to get ready
for his weekly 6 a.m. Bible Study at the church. Whatever, it certainly
wasn’t my desire to be up this early. It is now 6:10 a.m. and I’d much
rather be curled up in my bed catching a few more winks before having to
begin my day but for now I am here at the computer.
Next
week is my 50th birthday. I’ve lived 50 years and a majority of the time
felt alive and useful. This past year has been different. I became an empty
nester in 1994 at the ripe old age 40. That was actually a fun time. Doyle
and I were a couple again. Free to come and go as we pleased. Fall in love
all over again. Well, now I’m 50. What next? Complacency has never
been a friend of mine.
I
pray for direction and nothing comes. A year ago God called me to work
at the church as an Administrative Assistant. Okay, that’s my day job.
What about the 4:00 p.m. to bedtime hours… What about Saturday’s…What about
Sunday mornings…Worship is fun…there is no class for my age and although
I’ve taught for years I’ve never been asked to teach at my present church.
My assumption is they don’t believe I should. Do they see something in
me that I don’t?
I
don’t think I have all the answers nor do I think I have arrived at home
plate in the salvation department. You know “working out my salvation with
fear and trembling” will always be me. However, I do believe God has equipped
me to minister to and help moms of teenagers get through those years.
Also, women who are hurting and feel useless when they don’t have family
commitments of raising children. God has called Christian women to the
home and when the home is empty what then? If we can’t serve in the church
how will we be used? How will the older women teach the younger women?
Lord, please use me. Lord, please show me what to do with the next 50 years
of my life.
Lord,
please bless me with 50 more years of your blessings as I walk in obedience.
Here I am.
I
love you,
Martha
“I
will praise the Lord, who counsels me; even at night my heart instructs
me. I have set the Lord always before me, because he is at my right hand,
I will not be shaken. Therefore, my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices;
my body also will rest secure, because you will not abandon me to the grave,
nor will you let your faithful one see decay. You have made known to me
the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal
pleasures at your right hand.” Psalm 16. 7 - 11
Martha
